Life keeps on going. No matter what we try to do, we cannot control the perpetual flow of time. All we can do is to make sure that ourselves are awake at the steering wheel of our life.

Life has been a blur for me these past six months. I really have had no control over what is coming in and going out in my life. I am living in oblivion. Which tends to be real nice for a while. But as I was laying in bed tonight finsihing a movie, I had a huge awakening. Where have I been? What have I been doing? My life has been going so fast I can't see it!

I'm idling, but I'm not. Taiwan is confusing me. I am not sure what to think at the moment. The craziness of life here cannot be explained, only experienced, thru a hands on approach. The hum of the scooters, the grey of the pollution, the way the Tao rainbow dragon lights up the eyes. The Asian mist has a way of encompassing a soul and holding onto it with a tight grip. It begins to squeeze the life out of it and then reprieves us with it's beauty.

Asia is a strong woman, with a big heart. She tries to impress our souls with all of her mysterious allures of temples, buddahs, mountains and freedom. It's not hard to get sucked into her world.

I've been so caught up in it and feel that I am ready to leave. But her hold is so mighty, that if I leave, I will be scared. No one will understand me. No one will understand what I have been through. I may be more alone than if I choose to stay.

Somehow I've changed. Taiwan has brought me into a new circle of life that I have yet to understand. I am looking, searching and trying to see, but the haze is blinding my vision. Hopefully tomorrow, Asia will be generous and bring a breeze to clear my mind.