I need someone to pinch me, I must be dreaming. But...I know I am not. As I plop my somewhat overweight body (for Jess that is) onto my beach chair, I am in paradise. I've worked so hard to do this and I am finally reaping the fruits of my labor.
I woke up at 6 AM, ran out my door and headed for a morning walk on the beach. How awesome it is to walk outside on Tuesday morning and have the East China Sea as my backyard. At 8 AM we met our Welsh and New Zealand friends for kayaking. It was fantastic! The water here is so blue and the lush, green mountains shoot right out of it. We kayaked to a small rocky beach where I now have a new collection of the most enormous seashells. I can now officially be Sally who sells seashells at the Seashore!
As I sit on the beach and look out at the cerulean blue waters I wonder to myself, why am I here? I think of Facebook. Each time I log onto Facebook, I see my classmates from HS, living in Dubuque, raising a family and doing the same same. I feel so young at 27, but I am living such a rich lifestyle. Why do I choose this and others don't? Why do they choose to settle down? There is so much to see and experience in this expansive world, I can't understand, but I want to. Let me know your thoughts on this...I keep thinking of it and want to hear others perspectives and ideas. Why do we choose the paths we do? Hmmm....
Well, tomorrow I am off to snorkel, while the others go scuba diving. We are not even half way up the Vietnam coast yet. At least 6 weeks more, so stay tuned if you choose to hear about my travels....keep me posted on your thoughts and ideas of this blog....it keeps me thinking, growing and trying to understand all people's roles in this life. Peace until then.....
2 comments:
hey jess- i am one of dan's friends...jayma....sum call me 'superlove". i too wonder why people settle down. i wonder what the word "settle" even means. i understand the inclination to root down, like a tree... but- it is def. not how I'm intrinsically built.I think that some of "where people is at" is a frequency thing. The higher the frequency, the more evolved (the more someone has worked to find, or look for answers) Call them (us) the seekers. One breakthrough after another. Boom! It's a very uncomfortable process- but nesessary for growth. I feel that the "beings on the cutting edge of creation" are those of us who continually choose to master whatever dimension we find ourselves in. But we have to be WILLING to enter any dimension... any universe- and "take a look" at what we see. It takes a high courage level to let go and "let god"--- I feel that we all are "little-giants---incarnates of the creator---source energy" and "we people are as much god" as whatever idea we have about the "big man in the sky"... if only we can see that- (breakthrough the ultimate illusion) then we can engage in the mystery of life. are we the universe- god-source-creator trying to explain it-self? Infinity finding a route? Are these persons an expression of the multitude of personal expression of god=selves? I have traveled to 11 countries and have engaged in taking a look because--- i guess, that what I really wanted. I feel eternally blessed and much more emotionally informed and intelligent in doing so- maybe this is my destiny- to be an eternal sojourner- to look behind the nook and crannies- maybe the curiosity will kill me- but I do know that, for who i am- I can't live and breath, being "comfortable" in my own skin, or "settled-down" in my own person- without taking the ride.
blessings to you sister!
Hey Jess! Guess I to am not comfortable in my own skin as Jayma says! Although right know I have but one goal in life ( i am finding it too narrow and finally coming out of it!) so I am focusing on that. I have been over coming my anxiety about everything. Feeling comfortable where I haven't in years. Becoming comfortable pleasing other parts of me! Started to read books and listen to a book on CD. Learning and taken in a bit but more than EVER! Look at reading the "BHAGAVAD GITA as it is" by A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada! Living vicariously thru you as we speak!
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